About ME

If you don't know me very well, May I introduce myself...

I am a dreamer, traveller, absent minded, international, twin sister, Medical Product Manager, champagne importer, wine lover, used to live and study in Turkey, United Kingdom, Spain, France and Mexico, book lover, snowboarder, tenis lover, bla bla bla  OR JUST AN ORDINARY GIRL in her thirthies that means had a great childhood in the 80s :)

I was born and grown up in one of the crowded European city Istanbul. My mother tongue is Turkish but I prefer to write in English because my mindset is English right now.


 
Thanks God and to my parents because I got unlimited love and support from my parents always. My father used to work on Saturdays so, Saturdays were the day for theater with my mother and twin sister during the winter/springs and Sundays were the day we had breakfast all the family together and visit some parks or nice places...

We hadn't got any iphone or ipad even computer that time :) ...so  the only toy that I spent most of the time was my soft Teddy Bear! Furthermore probably I had emotional attachement with my Teddy Bear, he was some kind of my first foreign lover (he was a gift from UK) hahahha.

I had loved snow, winter, spring well I can say honestly except summer I still love all the seasons.



Being child in the 80s can't be expressed with words, you must live it, feel it, remember it :)








We were absoutely free mind to play, to create, to dream our worlds.
That may forwarded me to try variety of activities or hobbies each year. Once, my father bought me a typewriter and I was writing quite fanciful stories.

Likely most of the child in 80's spent their summer times in the summer houses almost 3 months every year.
Riding a bike, skating, swimming such thing are the daily activities even not hobbies in that time.

Parents complaint sometimes because of the flightiness of child. However in my personal opinion this could be the perfect harmony to try and discover what they really like.

I tried so many things, play guitar, writing, books, music, bike, dance, playing tennis, running, walking, climbing on the trees ;) (even when I became adult!)

I remember that I used to like parties, having delicious food, drinks, music and friends plus to say  'Hi' to the Camera!!!

Nowadays I am still dreamer, still there is an innocent but nauthy child inside of me. My hobbies, interests, taste of dishes, speaking language, place where are live, jobs, loved ones, friends, having party mood are changing while I do keep dreamer child and pure heart remain with me...

Ring Ring Mr.EGO is calling...

Mr. EGO has all the rights to call you in anytime and anywhere...

 

EGO is inside of us. For each of us. Some of them are huge whereas some of them are pretty small. 
I wish that get smaller day by day. However its not easy to deal with him.

He needs proofs for beauty, success, wealthiness, wisdom, popularity all kind of human being that all the religious and the way of belief thrive to control and overwhelm him.

EGO makes too much niose in our minds, distract our serenity of being human and controls us and major populations, especially if our territory on the development stages.

I certainly recognised that he can't ring us during the night times... unless you are not suffering of insomnia. Any other times he can't ring us; during the some acitivities such as our hobies. Imagine when you play tennis, well you want to win yes but that is the final target, so meanwhile of the game most of the people focus the ball only. Doing sport is the way to discharge our negative energy. How about reading a book, only you drop your mind between the sentences and fall in the new World.

Yoga, meditation, making love and calm/classic/soft music is the biggest blockage of the calls from Mr.EGO.
you do not need to prove or compete with anyone, just bare of you and your existence can enjoy the present moment.
Please accept that all we are full of love and flaws some of bigger than the others but eventually we are not perfect let your Ego just ring himself overthere

How can you block his calls, he can be revealed when you are unconsciously;
Be appriciated,
Compete,
Envy,
Disaffirm,
Fear,
Repating me, me, me
expecting
looking for the benefits for each situation
and fake happiness :(

I highly recommend you don't answer his calls or just find the places that he can't reach you as
I mention above...

 

shut down the noise of head(EGO), listen the voice of serenity(heart)

What a lovely Word...


Love love love... what a lovely Word it is.  Even the Word of love contains so much possitive energy with charming cool letter 'L' circular letter 'O'  and sympatic 'e' :)...

 


I just want you to think about the Word 'Love'.. but not only the Word, the feelings what fullfill you when you read it, hear it or see it. I honestly share with you my feelings that I thrive to find sufficent examples to express fairly.

My examples; loving myself, discovering the power of unconditional love, power of love, serenity, loving GOD, Allah, Dios whatever you called or believe it WHO created us full of pure love.

Sometimes its fighting with its biggest enemy and it seems it is just scared and hide itself from the people. It shouldn't be such difficult to guess the name of its enemy dear Mr. EGO...

Mr. EGO is the ally of Mr. FEAR they  colloborate most of the times but in the 21.century it seems Mr.EGO is  well-known with his succesfull attacks. Aggressive letter 'G' dispose of the good enegry of the letter 'e' and 'o' poor them... EGO is so selfish so strong

LOVE means giving it before taking without expectation. Love means smiling to the stranger older people in the Street. Love means hugging toughly until you squeeze that person enough well to hurt. Because sometimes love can be hurt,  you know that with some experience ;)


Love, love we can't do without you. Although we can't handle intensely you. Thats why we feel to give other people, our body produce over dosage. But there is a reason that your body produce over dosage to share with people around you.

So don't listen Mr.EGO and Mr. FEAR just share your love...

Angels follows us

How do we know angels exist?

Have you ever felt them, or believe in? I guess you are thinking that I am messing with you now but I believe them or let's say I start to believe.
I am an ordinary person and I have an angels, one two three I don't know the quantity for sure but recently  I notice strange feelings and actions running out nowadays.

I love the quote 'everything happen with a reason' ... When I was booking my first chakra book, thanks to book seller recommended me one turkish book it's called 'manual of living with angels' and none of page mentions the chackras but tell us all about our angels, miracles such things.

I started to laugh loudy while reading the first chapter and my mindset ise confused. Even though that wasn't the book I had wanted to read I kept continue and completed. In a meanwhile just before completed the chapters something happen that I can't proof of my mind.

I was kidding myself  ''ok if I have an angel please Show me your power, some proof of existance'' and expecting something like in the movies, you know that thinker bell will be appeared suddenly and  whisper on my ear hahahaha ofcourse I was sure that nothing could be happened until I was looking for my mobile to text my friend. Instantly one photo appeared on the screen, very old photo I guess that had been published 8-9 months ago on the instagram by myself.
it says ' you never know WHO loves you, WHO is following you...

I was a bit scared but tried to persue myself it opened by mistakely.

However my angels are more stobborn than me. They chased me to show me that they are here with me, and I must open my eyes eventually.

I have a twitter account which I'd never followed or have follower strangers, I am not active user.
2 days ago I recieved the notice that I have new follower, Curiously I checked ''WHO the fuck wants to follow me?'' the name was ''Living with Angels'' damn it!... it looks like bad joke someone hacked my ipad, telephone and messing with me... just in 2 seconds I was pissed off but later on I realized that was a sign! I must follow the signs.

I noticed that twitter account regarding one movie, I downloaded movie and watched enthusiasticly.
The history point at the book which I read already.

Numbers, small feathers, coins, same specific sentences when you have doubt in your mind to do something.
Thanks to author Beki İkala Erikli to write 'Meleklerle Yaşamak'

I am awake since then, I am waiting my miracles.

Beacuse impossible is nothing...